Lyrics cover range of regrets

"I Wish I Never Hurt You"

Now that the shoe is on the other foot
I’m the one dealing with pain

I wish I never hurt you
I wish I could take it all back
if I could I would

Now that I’m dealing with some hurt too
I wish I never hurt you

Now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish I never made you cry

Now that I’m dealing with some hurt too,
I wish I never hurt you, hurt you

Now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish I never made you cry

Now that the shoe is on the other foot I’m forced to look at it from your point of view
I got something I want to say to you
I apologize for playing a part in your son’s death
While he was taking his last breath
I was taking my first steps
Into this penitentiary, a place of lost souls
Human beings restrained
In shackles and chains
It’s hard to escape the pain
When you’re dealing with blame
I bury my face in my hands, man, feeling the shame
They tell me ‘Don’t worry, everything will be all right,’
But they don’t know what it’s like
When you’re unable to sleep at night
When you fight to face another day
I wish I could find a way
to get away.
I never will be happy in this place
It’s a taste
of my own medicine.

I reap what I sewed
The pain that I put you through, I’m feeling it ten-fold
My nights are hella cold and my days a long
If life was a game, then I played it wrong
Penalty after penalty,
a life sentence is the penalty
they’re forcing me to pay
I hope you feel me when I say
now the tables have turned
it’s burning
me deep
So deep
I toss and turn in my sleep

Now that I’m dealing with some hurt too,
I wish I never hurt you
Hurt you

Now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish I never made you cry
Now that I’m dealing with some hurt too,
I wish I never hurt you
hurt you

And now I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish I never made you cry

It ain’t no fun
when the rabbit got the gun
And them slugs is hittin’ you
Can you forgive me for what I did to you?
It seems like a lifetime ago
I was young and reckless
And if you wasn’t reppin’ this
you couldn’t tell me about this
Bullets flying through houses,
hittin’ tables and couches
Little kids catching strays
No child should have to suffer the death,
the bullets hittin’ ’em in their head
Her little body painted red
And we pretend to be the victims, instead
Of considering the feelings of the ones who love that child
Or the mother and father who used to kiss and hug that child
Who watched that child grow
And watched that child go
Six feet into the dirt
Man, that’s got to hurt
For what it’s worth
I apologize on behalf of black males
in packed jails
Who feel genuinely bad
We livin’ in bad conditions
Half in prison
The other half in graves
The remaining few don’t know how to behave
For the ones who do, I apologize to you for further tainting our image
It’s like change is off-limits
for us

We adopted the ways of the devil
Then took it to another level
Self destruction. I sit alone in my cell by myself, discussin’
My problems with God. I tell him I’m feelin’ disgusted
He tells me it’s part of His plan and for me to trust it
But his family’s shedding tears and they demanding justice
I wished that I could have that day back
March twenty-second, nineteen ninety-five
Then maybe that man would still be alive
And my big brother would still be free
Not to mention the pain I caused my mother and father
Some people say why bother?
Live. But now that I’m a father
with kids, I understand that it’s a way that life gotta be lived
I gotta give you my condolences
I’m holding this
Pain, heavy in my heart
For all the lives I tore apart

Now I’m dealing with some hurt too,
I wish I never hurt you
hurt you

And now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish I never made you cry

And now that I’m dealing with some hurt too,
I wish I never hurt you, hurt you

And now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish I never made you cry

I wish that I could take it all back
if I could, I would
believe me, it’s true
I know it can’t be easy for you
but what else can I do
I stand accused and found guilty
I know right now somebody feeling me
We don’t think about the pain ’til the pain is ours
We don’t think about life until it’s life behind bars
I never gave death a thought ’til I was dead to the world
I never thought about his kids until I was missing my baby girl
In this crazy world
I learned that life is priceless
For the last 10 years it’s been crisis after crisis
Christ is my Savior
But my behavior
Would make you think otherwise
I wish I never made you cry
Now that my eyes overflow like rivers and seas
Tell me, can you forgive me?
I apologize

I wish I never hurt you
Now that I’m dealing with some hurt too,
I wish I never hurt you, hurt you

And Now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish never made you cry

Now that I’m dealing with some hurt, too
I wish I never hurt you, hurt you

And Now that I got tears in my eyes, I
I wish never made you cry

I wish I never hurt you.