California ? A reality show contestant charged in the gruesome slaying of his ex-model wife left a suicide note on his laptop that says he considered her the love of his life but thought she was cheating on him, a police spokesman said Monday.

The 1 1/2-page typed note, titled “Will and Testament,” was found on the hard drive of Ryan Jenkins’ laptop after the former VH1 contestant hung himself in a Canadian motel room, said Sgt. Bill Kohanek.

Jenkins, 32, also apologized to his family for causing trouble but made no mention of Jasmine Fiore’s slaying, Kohanek said.

Fiore, 28, was found in a suitcase in a Buena Park trash bin early on Aug. 15. Her nose was broken, she was badly beaten and she was missing the last digit of all her fingers and her teeth — presumably to hamper efforts to identify her.